Jerry, weightless, pulls himself up level with the antenna. He reaches up an wrestles with the bolt. His gloved hands as clumsy as a drunks. Over the side of the ship a vast expanse of nothing but dark unfathomable. Behind him there is a light reflecting of the earth. He see refracted fragments of it in the shiny cladding but dares not turn around. Blue, green, oceans, landmass, atmosphere all reduced to fragments of colour. Jerry concentrates. In slow methodical movements he replaces the broken transmitter one bolt at a time it is not until the broken part is stowed in his leg pocket that he manoeuvres himself around and turns.
It is something impossible to describe. The earth from this distance. Like falling in love. Maybe this is what being born feels like? Jerry is a giant. A Greek god perched on a metallic arm of a machine hurtling though space.
For Jerry, the feeling of seeing the earth from this angle and distance is very specific a feeling that can only be described as…Tom Cruise. For Jerry in that instant, gazing down as the sun slips round the edge of the earth he has the impression that he is Tom Cruise. Not that he looks like Tom Cruise or feels like Tom Cruise might feel but that he is Tom Cruise and not just any Tom Cruise- not the couch jumping scientologist to old to take your shirt off in movies Tom Cruise but the beautiful flawed circa 1990 Days of Thunder Nicole Kidman Tom Cruise. His feathered hair stuffed into his helmet. He is grinning his Tom Cruise grin and his Tom Cruise heart is beating in his Tom Cruise chest and the earth is a tiny bubble below him getting smaller and smaller.
Jerry does a spaceman fist pump